The Cure

Cherry

By Bee

Sun, 10 Apr 2016
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13 comments
 

Will I bulge, 

like the snake that swallowed

an elephant -

arm - a barrage balloon,

an ostrich egg pulsing aside my neck?



The price of life - prize - Survival.

Sometimes, might be

better to expire,

but dying isn't for sometimes,

it's so often final.



No one asks -

they just assume 

you'll try.



And that is why I'm getting fried; 

lymph nodes radio-activated to destruction.

Consent form signed -

not that I decided;

It was everybody else

insisted I should take the cure.



I am afraid

of what might be suggested next, 

yet they don't suggest, they tell you

what your getting. Better? And I'm ungrateful 

not to want it, but then, 

I never asked for any of this.



No one does. They only hope to live

without irreparable damage.

I'm not even hoping 

for that any more,

I just want to manage the cure.

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Comments

Submitted by celticman on

I guess they put you in a machine and you're part of the machine. Kill or cure. Processed and flipped like a burgher. But there's a person inisde. That's something you never hide. 

 

Submitted by Bee on

Thanks CM - really.

x

Bee

Submitted by Bee on

For the cherries - smiley

x

Bee

Submitted by jeand on

Hi Bee

Thinking of you. Hoping all goes well.

Jean

Jean Day

Submitted by Bee on

Thanks Jean.

Bee

Submitted by Ed Crane on

You make me realise how lucky I've been and I shouldn't get fed up when life gets 'heavy.'

I know ladies who have been through this and they are fine after several years, both still running their businesses (one was my boss)

I don't want to deride the NHS again, but it doesn't appear they offer you much choice or discussion about it. I think the main difference between my system is that we are classed as customers (Klanten) not users, but what the hell as long as you get better what's the difference

Very very best of luck

Kxxxx

 

Submitted by Bee on

Thanks Ed.

Deb xxx

Bee

Submitted by Silver Spun Sand on

Dear Bee, you'll  never know how strong you are until being strong is your only choice. Beam on, kidsmiley

Tina

 

Submitted by Bee on

Thanks Tina.

x

Bee

Submitted by Denzella on

Oh Bee,

How I feel for you.  You are a very courageous lady and you have fought the fight but it must seem never ending.  I know what it is to feel the treatment sometimes is as bad as the condition and sometimes you put yourself through it not for your sake but for others.  The suffering can make one feel isolated and that no-one really understands what you are going through.

Always in my thoughts

Moya x

 

 

 

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Submitted by Jane Hyphen on

These treatments are like a dirty bomb. Do you stop steering and just sit in the boat and get thrown all around? I hope there are calmer waters ahead for you Bee and dolphins too x

 

Submitted by Parson Thru on

Very hard. With all that's happening to you it would be easy to become the object, but you have seized back the initiative, become the voice of the true subject. The one at the centre of it all. Sovereign. It's your story, your voice. It's hard to think of one more authentic. Thank you for sharing it. (Oh, Bee, I do write some tosh - maybe something in there makes a bit of sense)

Parson Thru