Autobiography
Gift: A Son's Story (Push)
Just before my mother reached the final stage of her illness, she was still living independently in the council bungalow she'd had for almost 25 years. But a few years earlier - as a precaution - she'd registered for a flat at a nearby sheltered accommodation complex in case the bungalow ever became too much. In the interim, though, she'd made her mind up. She wanted to stay put. 'I'm not leaving here,' she said to me one day 'until I'm carried out in a box!' I supported her in this. My brother wasn't so sure. His wife and her daughter, my step-niece, began to exert some pressure. There were already tensions between us. His wife and I had never gotten on. They seemed to go against anything I liked or wanted. At last, an opportunity arose to bring the matter to a head...
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I SHUFFLED (2)
a deck of cards and one spilled onto the floor it landed with a smack reminding us of a child we knew who lived for a while in such a sad life –...
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Are We Going To See Corfu?
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There are more beaches to sit on, 2 fortresses, parks and museums, and that’s just in Corfu Town. The buses are usable but confusing. They seem to go...
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Gift: A Son's Story (Signs)

The day following my mother's funeral was also the three-week anniversary of her passing - at 7.22pm on 26th April 2017. My brother and his wife had flown off on holiday that day, and I was continuing with the clearance of mum's bungalow. It was a time when reassurances were needed. And they came in strange ways...
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THE YOUNG AT WAR
with drugs. And booze and everything not so nice. How appropriate the songs for today’s folly and good times. He was a boy in a man’s desire to shock...
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I SHUFFLED
a deck of cards and one spilled onto the floor reminding us of our loner-child who lived on his own terms in a sad state of torment misbehaving--...
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Gift: A Son's Story (Postcards from the edge)

I was my mother's full-time carer during her final illness - from 16th October 2016 until 26th April 2017: the day she passed away. During that final spring, we took some day trips out to some local places of interest: Sandwich, Deal, Sheppey. Mum always enjoyed those trips. I think she knew she'd be seeing these places for the last time. Then, one day, we took the final trip. A few days afterwards, she began her final decline.
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Gift: A Son's Story (short extract 4)

After my mother passed away, I needed all the support I could get - and it wasn't coming to me from family. Although I'm not religious, I keep an open mind on spiritual matters. On my birthday that year - 5 days before mum's funeral - I decided to see a medium who'd been recommended to me by a friend. It gave me a lot of the reassurance I needed - though much more was to come.
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Gift: A Son's Story (short extract 3)

Another short extract from my book about my time spent caring for my mother during her final illness. After being rushed into hospital with renal failure, she hadn't been expected to survive. Miraculously, though, she pulled through and began to get physically better. But the ward she was put on was dismal and her psychological health began to suffer. She was expected to stay in for ten days. Then it became two weeks. Then three. Each time I visited, they kept putting her discharge date back another few days - and with each delay, she was getting more and more depressed. Her sister, Phyllis, had come to stay at mum's bungalow to keep it occupied for her return.
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Nightmares
Going to sleep for me at one point in my life would leave me in a hot suffocating bed of sweats and fighting to breathe. The main scary part of my...
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Gift: A Son's Story (short extract)

In 2017, I took extended leave from work to care full-time for my mother. A sudden illness had left her unable to live independently, and it would have broken her heart - and mine - if she'd had to go into residential care. She was only expected to live for a few weeks, and she wanted to spend those weeks in her own home, with familiar things around her, and family and friends close by. In the end, she lived a further seven months. Afterwards, I wrote a long book about her life, focusing on those precious months. This excerpt comes from near the beginning, when mum's rushed into hospital. She's delirious from the illness. I'm called into a side room and given the news.
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'When did you first realise that you were 'different'?'

A classroom experience that still affects me, more than fifty years later.
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Being Brave
In school I was timid, feeling my heart pounding in my chest and blood rushing to my cheeks, as my turn to speak up in class, snuck closer. I’d...
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Half Way Holiday Blues (Day 4)
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Half way through the holiday already! I always get the half way holiday blues. How do we get more Euros? Will my wife’s cold get better? Or will she...
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Memorable Moments
What are the memorable moments of my life? I have survived for seventeen extensive years. Several moments, in my mind, are endlessly ripe. I have...
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Wild Night At The Wrestling

Dear diary: Thinking and writing about Saturday 20 th October 2018. Daydreaming of doing different things that are out of my comfort zone are always...
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Grandpa's House
When I was young at Grandpa’s house, I would play in the cold icy snow. I would play, even as it slowly melted through my clothes, turning my skin a...
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I am Only Me
I am only human, that is all any can be. No more, no less, no need to guess. I’ve treasured, I’ve loathed, I’ve wept and laughed, There have been...
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Somehow We Are All Equal On Holiday
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Somehow we are all equal on holiday. We could be a lowly carer or the Mayor of London, a bank manager or a bus driver; We’re all Brits, together on...
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First Impressions
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First Impressions Greece, land of the early dusk, before our plane arrives in Corfu. Coming from Britain, clocks two hours forwards; It seems an...
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Head-Crash
End of a bad day
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Just following orders... (4) (ii)

Conclusion
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Just following orders... (4) (i)
Part One of the conclusion of my true-life story. I'm allowed to return to my flat after the damage I caused. But there's more damage to come...
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Florida Beach
Where your waves gave welcome your surf revived upon this shore, putting stressful minds at ease then it was so hard to believe, as edgy hands cup...
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Just following orders... (3)
Third part of my true story of a bad time in my life. My neighbour, Carl, has been found dead. The landlord has been arrested. We've just been informed we could lose our homes.
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Just following orders... (2)
Continuing my true horror story of a bad episode in my life...
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Just following orders... (1)
A true modern horror story. All identities and some small details have been changed.
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Phoning it in...
8 years ago, following a breakdown, I had to claim sickness benefit for almost two years before I was fit for work again. It was a horrible time. The system itself is sick. I failed two work-capability assessments and had to go through appeals and tribunals - in spite of the support of my GP, my therapist and a mental health key worker I was seeing. Here's one of many bad memories of that time. Sadly, still relevant it seems...
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Mobility
"He's going to be Grand-dead number one if he's not careful!" my driving instructor said. We laughed a lot together, we shared exactly the same...
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How writing (and a cat called Daisy) may have saved my life...
A true story of the power of words to transform lives...
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9 to 5

The working life of a high-functioning, late-diagnosed autistic...
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WORDS WORDS WORDS
In the beginning there was logos Said Heraclitus! In the beginning there was word Said the Bible! Sticks and stones Or words said The sadistic...
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Jim
Poem about a young lad I once worked with at a special needs day centre...
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A Martian in the Closet

The response to my earlier post - 'Gift: A Son's Story' - about growing up with undiagnosed autism has prompted me to post this. I started to write a...
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Gift: A Son's Story (excerpt)
In May 2015, at the age of 56 - and after a lifetime of inexplicable challenges - I was finally diagnosed with Autistic Spectrum Disorder (Asperger's...
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Happy You Have Her
It’s been a year and a half since our forever disintegrated into a never again. We reserve strangely formal virtual conversations for birthdays, for...
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Forwards
Thanks everyone for lovely encouraging comments- this is getting edited now for submission x
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Peter
Peter was one of the very first customers I ever pulled a pint for on my first day working in a local pub. For that I shall always remember him...
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Heard in Wales
A couple of weeks ago I visited North Wales for the day and was reminded of a couple of anecdotes. The first one, unrelated to the area, I heard...
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Measure Accurately?

(three family tales)
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Erotic Daydream In London
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Women of every race, tourists and students, young workers on the tube. Pretty Chinese lady or a muslim lady with a beautiful face.
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At A Jumble Sale

On a winter day.
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Part of my Autobiography - Saturday's Girl
Chapter 2 – Saturday’s Girl I decided to look for a Saturday job in that last year at school so I could earn some money to buy myself clothes. I was...
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Cacophony On Holiday
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Cacophony On Holiday Grandchildren all with Ipads, Adults with mobile phones or Ipads, All going at once. Kids’ TV, nursery rhymes, Wrestlemania, You...
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Sultry Days And Nights
In coolness Of night I sit alone With eyes Shut tight, Imagine Submerging In pool of Sparkling Cool water, Palms cup Each clear, Sun drenched...
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HERE I SIT

in the living room of my deceptions TV an instrument of choice in different zones of human emotions— should I watch an old Western or reality issues...
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Dust Never Settles
Soft and cool, my young legs stretched and toes splayed in a JC Penney palace beside you in the old bed. The blue room, where four decades later you...
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FROTHY FUN
Today we are going to do an experiment; Let us put washing powder in vinegar! My son said. That's when I felt the ink Bubbling over; Like washing...
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Shoebox Heart
We boys sat round a flip-topped box fondling reverently ancient cardboard and new plastic. Our imaginations fired, lust and the first flush of desire...
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Senescent Language
Senescent Language Of my forefathers Lingers in my adolescent memory I had vowed to forget my distant past Only then could I become a true citizen Of...
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Circa 1958
Ordered an egg roll with a buddy of mine spoke of how tough it was at home and other things— that mom was a waitress here like the one bringing our...
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From a troopship, July 1945

The place – he’s in a troopship on the way; the why? long journey home, he fills each day recalling memories of years abroad in war, his toil...
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Intelligence

I was listening to a podcast about the Psychological study of intelligence at the time, on my bike. Joel spent all Saturday afternoon fixing it for £...
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LOST IN WATER
Lost in water It begins life as a newt Or a tadpole Uncanny resemblance to a sperm! Therefore I wonder how much of our (my) DNA Is shared with the...
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Discovering Craig y Cilau*

… feel a beautiful cool updraft as from a deep-freeze. …
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Bag It
It was June 12 th, and getting out of bed in the morning was not something Ben Telfair was ever any good at. Hopping out of bed was never a problem,...
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The dog next door
That nice looking local we see about the place with the big dog we learned was Angel's brother is standing at their gate, chatting with Kay. "...
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Cats and Cuddles
Thirty-something years ago during a weekend of hosting friends I entered the kitchen early on the Sunday morning where a longtime friend of my then...
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Gone to the dogs

Gone to the dogs she must be, hacking her graveyard cough behind the closed front door where her stumbling greyed and matted old dogs whimper and...
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BOYHOOD
There goes that Gene Autry song once more – Back in the Saddle Again on a hit parade of memories when boys sought out a hero or two with Roy Rogers...
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